had an awesome weekend away with a great group of people.
learnt so much more about relationships (deeper issues).
bonded with friends and got to know them better. one in particular became my snotty tissue buddy (which I thought was pretty spectacular).
Before I leave, just wanna slot in one of my fav verse from the book of Proverbs.
"Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make straight your paths."
Proverbs 3: 5-6.
Monday, September 19, 2011
Tuesday, September 13, 2011
SOOK
It has dawned on me that I have less than 5 months left in this beautiful city. And people back 'home' are not exactly helping matters (I'm not blaming them - don't get me wrong) when they ask questions like,
"when are you coming back?"
"Don't know. Stop asking."
"i can't wait for you to be back!"
"If I could, I'd rather not."
"what are you gonna do when you come back?"
"I don't know. And if you've asked this before, I would recommend that you stop asking the same question because I.DONT.KNOW."
"when you come back, we can go do *this* *this* *this* and *this."
"I'd rather not. Leave me alone. Don't plan things for me if I didn't give you the green light."
The lines in blue are just what i feel like answering. I actually say different things to people because I am not normally that rude. I would still answer your questions properly if I know you mean no harm.
Yeah so I am currently trying to spend as much quality time with the people here that I love. But somewhere inside me, there's just this increase of sadness as days go past. Okay I'm just being mean because if I were to be going somewhere exciting (i.e. the States or Europe), I wouldn't feel whatever I feel right now (or so I think).
Expectations. It scares me a lot. The whole 'you will have to work, work, work, and we expect this much from you' - scares me a big lot. It annoys me when I'm not known as *inserts own name* but as 'my father's daughter' (i.e Miss *inserts last name*). Because I think as much as I know it's tough, I do want my own identity.
And I feel like I have my own identity here. Which is why I never want to leave..
Sook is me, me is Sook. Even that word has an identity of its own.
"when are you coming back?"
"Don't know. Stop asking."
"i can't wait for you to be back!"
"If I could, I'd rather not."
"what are you gonna do when you come back?"
"I don't know. And if you've asked this before, I would recommend that you stop asking the same question because I.DONT.KNOW."
"when you come back, we can go do *this* *this* *this* and *this."
"I'd rather not. Leave me alone. Don't plan things for me if I didn't give you the green light."
The lines in blue are just what i feel like answering. I actually say different things to people because I am not normally that rude. I would still answer your questions properly if I know you mean no harm.
Yeah so I am currently trying to spend as much quality time with the people here that I love. But somewhere inside me, there's just this increase of sadness as days go past. Okay I'm just being mean because if I were to be going somewhere exciting (i.e. the States or Europe), I wouldn't feel whatever I feel right now (or so I think).
Expectations. It scares me a lot. The whole 'you will have to work, work, work, and we expect this much from you' - scares me a big lot. It annoys me when I'm not known as *inserts own name* but as 'my father's daughter' (i.e Miss *inserts last name*). Because I think as much as I know it's tough, I do want my own identity.
And I feel like I have my own identity here. Which is why I never want to leave..
Sook is me, me is Sook. Even that word has an identity of its own.
Thursday, September 8, 2011
La Di Da
Some of the friends I know I will miss dearly when I leave..
Today, I thank God for friends like them.
Today, I thank God for friends like them.
Monday, September 5, 2011
Bringin' Bloggy Back!
Wanted to change the address but i just love pikieandthebrain too much. Decided to delete everything I've written in the past ultimately but I did do a recap before.
I've grown to be thankful these days. I think being out of my comfort zone helped a lot and this is something to be grateful for! Not that I wasn't in the past, but maybe I was grateful on a more superficial level then. So I remember thanking heaps of people on my birthday this one year and the last on the list, was first on the heart - then.
Now? He's just trash. Likethis.
feelings are transient - they will pass.
and i'm glad they do...
I've grown to be thankful these days. I think being out of my comfort zone helped a lot and this is something to be grateful for! Not that I wasn't in the past, but maybe I was grateful on a more superficial level then. So I remember thanking heaps of people on my birthday this one year and the last on the list, was first on the heart - then.
Now? He's just trash. Like
feelings are transient - they will pass.
and i'm glad they do...
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